Over the past couple of days, I've been in a constant struggle to choose to have a positive attitude. I will admit, some days it has come naturally, but other days it has truly been a fight. Or so it has seemed that I'm waging an internal war with myself.
I believe that having a good attitude despite what's going on in your life, is truly a choice. We are able to "trick" our minds into thinking everything is gonna be alright if we constantly focus on that saying instead of resorting to an easier way of thinking "this sucks and life is falling apart for me"...or as some eloquently express it "FML = f*ck my life".
Over the past couple of months, I feel like I've had this calling over my life to bring hope to others as well as to inspire them. Let my positive vibes rub off on them and perhaps make their lives just a little bit better. To inspire them when they are going through a hard time with something I may post on my Facebook or Instagram account.
Then I thought, but what about me? Who's inspiring me? Is every day really this happy? What happens when I face a hard time?
Let's be real here....
Well in the past couple of days...well actually the past couple of weeks, I've had to find answers to these questions. The truth is, every day really isn't always a good one for me. I can recount a few times in the past week that I've experienced some symptoms of depression. I wouldn't go so far to say I'm depressed, but I do feel like there has been a significant change in my mood for the worst. Maybe it's hormonal on top of some unfavorable events that have taken place....idk. I just find myself seriously working to elevate my mood and keep it that way. Like this is a true job to be happy or something.
I have done a lot of reflecting over these past couple of days and have decided that although I feel like I'm struggling right now, I have recognized that I still have a choice. Often times we don't want to choose to be positive despite what's going on because it's just so much easier to sleep all day, shut everyone else out of our lives for a few days as we shut down, drown our sorrows in a bottle of wine, or just simply feel sorry for ourselves. Oh and to jump on the opportunity to star in the latest episode of Woe is Me.
But how do you get through when you're "going through"? Here's a start, think back to the last time you had something unfavorable happen in your life. You know that time when your life was crumbling and crashing all around you and you didn't know when the bull was going to be over with? Yeah, and then you remember back to the day of breakthrough. The day you finally made it to the other side of normal again and could smile without it being forced. Woohoo!! That was a great day!! It'll come again....as you choose to get there. Slowly and steadily better days are on the horizon.
Embrace all those cliches that we kind of shy away from because no one wants to hear some worn out cliche when your life seems to be going in a direction that you had no intention of it to go. In conclusion, I had to tell myself something that I find to be so helpful when I'm "going through". 1. What is this experience teaching me? What can I learn from this that will make me better? 2.) Life is all about seasons, and seasons change whether you want them to or not. Every day is not going to be like summer. Whether we like it or not, winter has a purpose too. Look for the blessing in every lesson. Hope for a brighter day because we all know that it's eventually coming.
...thanks for reading.... :)
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